Man I am kinda scared for the package coming... I won't get sick will I? Cuz I am very unused to the taste of American things now. But it's ok!! As for sudoku, I love your thoughtfulness, BUT I have mountains to focus on and much to learn. Maybe on Christmas I will do it. When I came out I promised to "devote all your time and energy to serving the Lord", as the white handbook says. Mom, you're inspired counsel is just what I needed. And I don't know if you and Dad planned it, but you said coinciding counsel. I do need to be myself! Somebody out here needs regular old Conrad. And I want you to know I am going to apply your counsel, because it is from Father in Heaven. As for listening to whatever you say, I wanna explain. It is because I have realized the true outpouring of inspiration that comes from you and Dad. I am not trying to be hard on myself, I just know with a surety (not faith, knowledge) that if I follow exactly what you say I will be happier and more successful. I am not restricting myself; I am becoming free and full :) Trust me momma, I WANT to obey!! I want to be perfect in obedience to you, dad, and my Father. I know perfection won't be achieved necessarily, but I can try. And I will not be focusing on me. I am really going to try to have major faith and just quit focusing on me. It will be hard, and take time, but the Lord can help me. Momma, will you give me counsel? I want counsel on feeling the Spirit. Recognizing and following Him as well.
I cleaned our flat on p-day and man, felt at home!! The value of hard house-work is not valued by all. I realized also that the Savior "descended below them all". And as it thought about how sometimes I get mad or angry because others don't try so hard, I have NO right to be angry. Because they are children of God, and am I perfect? Not even close. So am I "greater than He?" No. He humbly submitted below all persecution, then so should I. My standards will never break, but I can be better :) I forgot to tell Dad, but I figure you all share letters so I will tell you (please all share emails ok?) Dad talked about "arriving" in his pride counsel to me. And it made me think about something. If always tell myself "I can be better!" then I never have the "Arrival Effect". I named it :) To avoid the arrival effect, always tell yourself "I can be better!" is the conclusion I made for myself. Is that appropriate? So far it has worked well :)
I'm counting my blessing out here. I am learning to cook! I am being self-sufficient. And most of all, I am changing. I will follow your counsel with exactness though, and I will be Conrad out here. I fear I may have strayed from it for a time, and it's time to return back to the basics. Mom I hold you as the highest in my sight. I love you more than words justify. I am happy :) Oh, and I saw wild monkeys!! And today we worked on a shumba (farm) and... ouch. I'll take pictures of my hands. I'm gonna send the 8 GB SD card soon ok? It's not full, but you guys will enjoy it :) I am short on time tho momma, I love you so much. Is everything ok at home? And is there anything I can do for you?
Lastly Mom, please know that I really do love you so incredibly much. My love for you each grows exponentially every night. I don't fear for you guys anymore because I know you love the Gospel. I love you Mom, and behind that statement is an eternity of love and charity for you. I am always your son, and always striving to be worthy for such a prestigious calling :)
your Son, Conraddie!!