An African Heart

An African Heart

Sunday, May 6, 2012

I am so glad that you guys get to email Elder Arineitwe. Seriously, there are times when I act like his father. He is so innocent in the ways of the world, in everything man. Sometimes I am his father and it is really new and cool for me. He is awesome, and totally a powerful missionary. He has such a strong sensitivity to the Spirit that it amazes me, and he doesn't even realize it. As for us being two lions, it's him man. I feel very often that I just don't measure up to this kid I’m supposed to train. I am honored to be with him, and I am learning more than him I think!

Ben has always astounded me. I saw it from day one man. Being around him so much, he has made me seriously realize that living the Gospel should never be conditional. And that it should be sincere. Tell Benjamin that I am more proud of him than even before. And I was already flippin proud of him!! I can't wait to return home, and share with him everything I can. I want to not only train him for his mission, but also I want to learn from him. He is so insightful! He has an amazing future. As for me I don't know what mine holds except that I am going to obey the Lord and serve Him. As for Benjamin (and it sounds like Daniel too!), he is going to be a tool for great works.

Well Daddio, I have to say it is a blessing to have a big ward at home. There are so many amazing blessings and opportunities in a ward like Crestwood that just aren't available here. Progression happens, but short line upon short line. I just want you to know that I am so thankful for our wonderful ward at home and I love it. I can't wait to serve there in whatever calling I receive! 

Also, check out Mom's email for a crazy cool story haha! All I can say is "Welcome to Kenya!" 
Daddio I love you. Our family is so blessed and has so many opportunities and blessings it makes me sick sometimes. That we, and even I, should receive these things when I am so imperfect and unworthy of them makes me upset sometimes. The world is not fair, and it's true. Celestial life is fair, and equal, and that, with my understanding of the Plan of Salvation is the only thing that keeps me thinkin that everything will turn out ok. But man, seeing these Africans makes me hurt. Here's a sick story.
STORYTIME!!!! Ok well this is not a happy story. I was getting my haircut in a town called Webuye. I finished, and as Elder Hodges (our Zone leader who I was with) was getting his cut, I looked out this little barred window from the shack we were in. There was a big trash pile there. A man walked up in a shabby shirt and baggy pants, very dirty. He began sifting thru the garbage and eating it. As I watched, I realized I had become indifferent to the fact at what was happening before my eyes. I re-evaluated, and remembered how the Savior was "moved with compassion" in Matthew. I realized that that man was literally eating garbage to live. If it was me, I would be miserable. I can’t even imagine if it was me. But that man was my brother before. I have clothes, money, food, homes, a job, a future, a school, education, religion, security, and the most incredible, stable, and loving supportive family on Earth. Why then, has God chosen me to receive these things? And as I think now, I need to rise to a new sense of commitment. There needs to be a continuing change in my actions, that I can provide the greatest amount of blessings while I am out serving. 
And as for my family, I hope this will help us all do the same. The world is harsh outside the walls of our temple-like home. In fact, the world is merciless. It is bombarded by the angels of the devil and they feel no mercy. Keep your hopes high, but keep your guard higher. Dad, I love you so much. The world is tough out here, but with the Lord I can do it. In fact, without the Lord I wouldn't even try, because I couldn't. I love you so much, and I pray that the Lord will see my imperfections and help fix me into somebody He wants me to be. I don't care what calling I have, even if it is nursery teacher - I will magnify it because I know that that is where the Lord needs me to make the greatest difference. "I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandments unto the children of men save He shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which He commandeth them." And I testify that it is true. 
Love you bajillions :)

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